yo doin it up!

hehe,
yo gave me a head nod. =]]

jesus.
niggas and their long ass blogs.

i'm sooo fuckin tired!
thats what i get for trying to be down staying up at 1 in the morning and shit.

i wanna make a long blog!
but i'm tired, and not really in the mood but lets see how that goes.

agah,
so i tend to think about random shit periodically and i rant in my phone note when i can't blogspot about them so i'm gonna elaborate!

so bam,
i kinda feel like i contradict myself a bit.
likeee, i yearn for change allll the time, but then i reminisce about how much i miss the past and how i wish things would go back to the way they were.
i miss some old things about myself,
&other junk.
idk, it's like the more things change the more i become satisfied and dissatisfied.

but i guess thats life right?
change is inevitable.

these past couple of days, my view of things have been very oppy.
i'm trying to become a little stronger and learn not to dwell on somethings.
i let little things kinda get to me really easily....
likeee me feeling uneasy.

in my head my ground is slowly being pulled from underneath me,
in so many ways i can't put my finger on.
&i'm kind of just letting it slip away w/o a fight.
i'm very dissatisfied with it!

my friendships are getting closer,
and my friendships are distancing...

idk,
i feel like i'm missing something,
likee, i don't feel special and i want attention &all that junk.
but thats a diff topic.

don't get me wrong,
this week i have been in a very euphoric mood.
but it's still those moments,
it's still those times when i'm not completely content.

oh shit!
&i'm shaking less.
hell yeah.

so yesterday i went to my first game!
wooo!
we were suppose to sell concessions and stuff,
but it just ended up being me, cia, and boom being idiots around the school.
[oh and heather from time to time]

we kept getting followed around by freshman.
my 'little brother' is cool,
but they kept leeching to us!
[lol, is that a word?]
agah, hungry ass fat kids.

lol, i got bitched like 4 diff times, by 4 diff teachers.
but it was pretty cool.
i enjoyed myself.
i haven't stayed after school that long since homecoming weekend.

hmm, so lets see.
key points of my day yesterday..

heather drove me to the mall!
woo, i'm so jealous.
i wanna driveeee.
permit this weekend or next weekend for sure!

i got fried wontons and a chic-fil-a milkshake! =]

i spun around and slipped and slid around the school in my socks.
after the game i danced in this old womens aerobic work-out session thing.
hehe, i was getting down.
we did some texas electric slide type shit.
geez, i miss acting like an idiot!

urm..
so yeah,
the only sucky thing is that i got home around kinda late and didn't do any hw b/c i was preoccupied w/ getting my webcam to work.
but whateverrr.

gahblah,
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okay so i tried to make this blog long.
lol, i don't have shit else to say.

buttt i will add that this has been one of my best weeks in a pretty long time.
oh & my lil sis turns 15 tomorrow so [!][!][!]

bam sam.
En out.

peace<3