Every winter was a war, she said. i've got to get what's mine.

Ah...my head is spinning right know. Ahehehehe....youre just making me spin around in circles and I have no idea what to do.

Each day I get even more depressed with myself. My self esteem is actually rising while my morale and confidence is slowly falling. It's like weighing them both on a scale...the scale being me...but the effects are working more in reverse. This Penn State thing is really getting to me...it's driving me nuts. I couldnt sleep last night thinking about it...I really want to get into University Park. IDC about not being on campus cause I can always find off campus housing...I just want to live the college life that I wanted. I want to be close to my good friends and not freakin 3 hours away! Hopefully En is right and it wont be 3 hours away cause I'll be dead lol.

I really wanted to blog about something else but i can't remember right now...this is by far one of my shortest blogs on here but oh well lol.

EDIT (8:41 pm): I finally figured out what I wanted to blog about. People who try to hard to be creative. Everything is readily available for anyone these days...you can make music with a program called Fruity Loops and anyone who picks up a pencil and writes at least 2 stanzas with rhyming words is automatically deemed as a poet. Thats the most annoying thing that I've heard it. It takes away from the literary merit of the real people who actually have good ideas. I can see someone who wants to try it out and stuff, but just because a few hood rats say "Ooo that was deep." does not mean youre a poet? My god I've met so many "poets" throughout my life...seems like everywhere you turn theres a "poet". Turn to my left...random fat girl writes poetry now she's a poet, turn to my right...my cat is writing words in her stank ass poop...Ooo thats deep, she must be a poet. Poetry is so loosely given to someone who can rhyme a few lines these days...its ridiculous. I told Morgi3 I would write about a banana split and have a few rhyming lines here and there and I'll become a poet.

Stupid poets...I dont like them.

- DI