normal blog.

my goal before i leave this school is to establish a friendship. this is what i have to do. i am intrigued & this has been going on for long enough & no action. seems like the ppl you`re actually interested in. . . you never seem to get. but i am working on it bc i won`t be satisfied if i`m not friends. i am so frustrated with myself bc i always fuck up with ppl i`m interested in, like every single person . . . . lol bc i just don`t know what to do about it. i`m too subtle. i am soo not aggressive. i am so confused about this whole dating thing. what makes it worse is that i shouldn`t be this confused about it but oh well. i don`t know how to actively express myself. i`m not sweating it bc i don`t care for nonsense like this, all i want is a friendship & my wants will be satisfied. but meh, honestly, i am not attracted to a lot of ppl. they are always far in between. but it just seems like we have a lot in common. just from an observation. he seems fun... like me & i want to get to know him. i am merely an admirer.


i am so freaking tired. it was a wild night yesterday. okay i had no intentions of leaving out last night, but the catalyst for that was Tosin & Shannon went outside with my board & i followed them. We didn`t get back in till 3:30am lol. It was about 7 of us acting crazy going into the halls that were open & going into the arberidium (sp??) but that`s like woods & such. it was crazy dark in there at 2am lol. we saw something so we ran out lmfao. i was the first person out. but it was a wild fun night. one of the best i`ve had in a while. oh yeah i`m also sick i think i have the flu but i`ve been taking nyquil so i haven`t really been experiencing the symptoms. there are so many things i want to improve about myself now. i feel fat & my complexion is shit. like i`m breaking out & i know it`s my diet bc my skin wasn`t this bad at home but meeeh what can i do about it. i need to get money for some ProActiv but i`m soo broke but that would be the perfect bday gift i should ask my brother lol.


i wanted to discuss various topics today but i just don`t feel like it. i`m really exhausted. i didn`t fall asleep until like around 7:30 this morning bc i was texting some loser lol & i`m just out of it. i had these weird dreams & crap & ugh it`s so annoying. i`m gonna play zelda & then prob go back to sleep. then later on i HAVE to wash my hair & make up A LOT of english work before today. hopefully i don`t procrastinate bc this girl let me use her books bc i don`t have them but yeah i need to make up work. but yeah i`m gonna really get into what i wanted to talk about on a later blog.

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- em.