Today has really been a sulking day for me. Some days I feel as though I made progress and other days I feel like I'm just stuck in a hole somewhere and today is one of those days. Im highly aggravated with the people in this Squad because I feel like I'm the only one taking it seriously. It makes me wanna quit so bad, just the whole thing because I feel as though I'm not going to get anywhere with all of this. I feel so alone and I need to do sooo much things to improve myself that it's almost stressing at times, but I really wanna do it because I really wanna get better. Yet another half of myself is just telling me to stop and just do something else. I dont know where to go at this point. I want to continue though and I think I will. I just have to keep the will to keep going. If I dont get cooperation from this squad then Im leaving them to be and taking the people who are serious with me. Today is the last note that I will send out to the people who I haven't heard from in a few days. It's just kinda stressing trying to get everyone together.

I think I need to sit down with myself and make a list of everything that I want to achieve and gain some new inspiration for what I'm doing. Something has to bring me out of what I'm feeling right now because I feel so hopeless. Only those who keep fighting will make it and I have to keep fighting, keep writing, keep singing, keep rapping, and keep pulling no matter how bad it gets. I was going to say I pray, but Im going to stop praying and start doing.

- DI