102 - continued

I blogged the first half of this on my Sexxneverlies blog so if you want to read the rest then go there. www.sexxneverlies.blogspot.com

now just to recap on what I was talking about for those who are lost...

I always have to have some type of control over a situation because I want to manipulate things in my favor, however today just seems so out of place. Bad signs:

1. Rain
2. Work
3. Work
4. Work
5. No money
6. Work

lmao. I found that to be pretty funny. But days where it rains sorta brings my morale down as I'm sure it does for a lot of people. I think Im just going to continue this on EMKAYDIEN because it's my turn to post so follow meee!!

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Alrighty so I'm bacckkkk and now lets continue! The day so far has been shitty and the bad thing is that I just woke up lmfao. I have no idea what the day has in store for me so its just kinda like...blah. Hopefully it'll be something good because I dont want to sit in the house alone on a Saturday...thats very deadly and boring! Hmmnn alright so next! Ugh this damn italics thing is fucking up so I have to keep highlighting and pressing the i button because it wont go away...it's kind of aggravating me at the moment but imma just have to finish this and highlight everything then press the i. fucker lol.

TOMORROW.
The fam comes home from Ocean City...I'm not looking forward to that because it's actually peaceful for once lol. I can just do whatever the hell I want haha. It's also the last day of spring break to me because Monday will be full of finishing up hw and dreading the fact that we have to go back to school. Well at least we only have a few weeks left lol. The stupid cap and gown place didnt take out the money for my cap & gown yet so I'm just tryna keep my balance above 40 until they do haha. Tomorrow holds a lot of possibilities that I really dont have an idea of what they are...I dont have to work so thats always a plus however that means I dont get any money so thats wackkk. I might cover someones shift just to get some extra money...we'll see.

Something that also has been interesting me is that I'm reading over my younger friends blogs and although theyre only younger by a year I can see the immaturity lol. Im still immature myself but it's like I'm looking @ a diff version. They are talking about the same things I used to talk about when I was their age and it's kind of funny when I read it because I feel like I just took a step back like a year lol. However, to my younger counterparts...dont be so quick to grow up because life will force you to grow and it's not fun at all. A lot of parents say they wish they could be young again and it's the truth...I would like to stay 18 forever because its a good part of my life...no credit, no worries about pretty much everything and anything lol. Parents providing me with some place to live...I'm basically mooching off of what they're doing. But it's whatever...fuck it...this is life and I can't do shit about it. I have to realize that I dont amount to shit in the world and I'm just another statistic. Theres nothing special about me that separates me from the rest of the people and I can't get upset when someone doesnt notice. No one cares about you in the world because theres about 1000 million other people just like you lol.

This will be the conclusion of my epic blogging. I have to work @ 11:30 so Im about to be outtie in a little bit. Cya. Oh yeah if you forgot...go read the other half on my SXNVL blog.

www.sexxneverlies.blogspot.com

- DI

ily bay.